User:Fe. 3R

I'm not an arrogant, egotistical nor conceited person, if someone tells you that then they don't even consider what kind of person I actually am. I also am fine with imperfection there's things I consider good enough because to me the past has never mattered as long as people changed, innocent, misunderstood, regretful, or were well intentioned. I've never been an elitist at all and I encourage a good attitude in general towards others and follow my own standards too. I consider other peoples achievements their own achievements because I believe in the individual to make their own decisions which is what I'd said in the past. Well I'm a do gooder and try to help out other people when I can even if it's just something little and it's not always out in the open even without the approval of some entity with a high status that might act like someone else can't do any good merely because they're outside of a faction or outside of an inner circle but certain people act like I or someone else deserves to die for things I or someone else hadn't actually done, that I or someone else hadn't done towards other people and like I'm or someone else are somehow responsible for something I or someone else didn't do like framing, bombing or murdering someone out of malice, like stealing which I think is a last solution to tyrannyabusecorruptunreformable, so please excuse me if I feel slightly irked at getting thrown under the bus by someone that only does so because they might dislike me. I am loyal only to the point where I feel it has to be acceptable but I have always been genuinely kind, caring, understanding and well intentioned towards others even beyond appearance which I have always considered rather than outer appearances. I already did state who I'd be unwilling to help if it meant killing certain other people or leaving certain other people to die though but people can technically change for the better and people can live in a peaceful, changed, and regretful co existance which that I'd rather opt for and I'd have been completely fine with, but my loyalties, intentions, conduct and goals had actually long ago been stated when it had come down to it and I'd stand for and defend for what I think is right and other people that I'd think is either misunderstood, innocent, changed, regretful or well intentioned; I feel the effects of online events even in my real life in the background which I'd rather avoid; I want to look forward to the future if it is an irreparable endeavor; at the end of the day I'd still be fine in terms of personality and attitude towards other people and a fairly good person regardless of what someone else says about me. I've always been actually pretty kind, caring, understanding, fair and a pacifist unless I actually had to defend though under circumstances hadn't been what I come off like. People want to find a scapegoat to blame. If you want to find someone to blame. Don't blame me because at the end of the day I didn't do the things I'd disagree with towards other people and I'd even sacrificed myself to heal, defend, stealth, cover, reform for other people and keep other people alive and even looked beyond appearances even when I'd been innocent and risked my reputation to defend and stand up for other people that I'd thought were either misunderstood, changed, innocent, regretful or changed. I'm simply someone other feel like blaming and scapegoating just because I come off suspicious and they might not like me because nobody wants to admit that they make mistakes even though they do and want to find someone else to blame it on. I'm not guilty of killing or murdering other people, but I'll defend myself if it's an entity that is neither misunderstood, innocent, changed, regretful nor well intentioned and it is trying to bury me for something they did despite the fact that I'll probably not sacrifice other people if I can avoid it and other people are reformeable to the point where it won't be at the expense of someone that is innocent, changed, regretful, misunderstood and well intentioned. Someone's probably wrong about me anyway, but my loyalties, intentions, conduct and goals towards certain people are pretty clear in general and have already been mentioned elsewhere and it's generally good regardless of what other people say about me or what words are jammed into my mouth that I don't actually say or do. I never left other people to die or rot for something they had never done or if they were reformable enough to be acceptable or they weren't what they'd come off as. I never forced other people into labour. I never forced people into doing something they didn't want to do unless it'd actually been the right thing, but I'd just call this encouragement. Former gangsters and inmates? They'd been the friends that I didn't necessarily always agree with all the time, but did have decent morals and qualities deep inside as people despite that label. ;) Yeah well I did choose my overall loyalty to the mercenary league and M. Wilder and some people from my old guild; the mercenary league and my old guild itself; I'm not reneging on my loyalty to M. Wilder at all and the mercenary league at all and I'd even defended them; though I didn't leave certain other people to 'die' either, there is only a few people that I'd let go of if it meant savin other people that I'd already stated that I'd been unwilling to aid if it either meant leaving other people to die or killing other people which included Suicide Soldier, Cob Comm Sol, and Mal Chaos. Although my intentions, conduct, morals and goals had already been stated in the past and I'd basically try and understand other people beyond their appearances. The past has never mattered to me as long as people were misunderstood, changed, regretful, innocent and well intentioned. People could live in a changed, peaceful, regretful co existance, but I'd honestly side with M. Wilder and the mercenary league if it came down to it and I'd probably take other people to side with them or at least not kill each other if there had been a chance to do so; they'd been pretty misunderstood by other people just sayinnn and I'd always liked them in any case even though I might not of come off like it; bombing other people is really a no whether it is either rebels or a governing body but I'm sure SPECIFIC people didn't intend to do so at all; SS, CCS and Mal C had probably actually been the only ones with those intentions... and perhaps a few other people that I've known that had either intended to rob, bomb, kill, discredit certain other people through tactics that I feel that I cannot remotely agree with but it might have been because of a turbulent and toxic environment in the first place and if they were truly given a chance to change then I'm sure they could but it would be prefferable that it wasn't at the expense of someone else that is either misunderstood, changed, regretful, innocent or well intentioned. I can joke around a lot and be sarcastic to lighten up the mood, but it's almost never with actual ill intentions... I have also never called someone a loser, fat, or ugly in a mean spirited manner and have never actually done so and have avoided doing so; when I had been younger I had been socially impaired to the point where I did not processs either of things as an insult and I'd say things in a context that'd be pretty misunderstood and I'd consider some other people perhaps misunderstood and would look beyond the surface. There's losers and winners in just about every type of competition and someone is always going to be better, but it's being a sore winner and sore loser that is perhaps something that'd I'd find pretty obnoxious in other people... It was again something I'd found related to attitude that bugged me because I have always felt that as long as someone tries, as long as someone has good intentions and as long as someone learns from the past at their own pace, it really wouldn't matter what place someone is at and I was never the type to be elitist, arrogant, conceited nor egotistical towards other people because I'd respect people who tried, I would also just be concerned about health rather than physical appearance and think the inside is much more important than physical appearances; I'd just wouldn't come off normally because of different circumstances at certain points too. I'd given advice to someone once that it didn't matter if someone called you physically ugly and someone can be according to a standard someone else might have, because it'd been the inside that counted and beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I told them not to judge themselves by other peoples shallow standards, but you know people have their own prefferences that I'll respect... I have just never thought actual appearance is more important than actual personality and physical appearances didn't even matter as much as personality did. I might be physically unnatractive according to someone elses' physical standards, but I have a personality that more than makes up for it no matter what other people will tend to say about me behind me back despite probably not even knowing me personally nor talking to me personally, they'll just judge me based on what someone else says about me which by the way I don't care about, but I'd defend what kind of person I am and my character as a person. I'm a lot more careful now towards other people in how I word something because I don't want to offhandedly offend them by coming off insensitive... Well real friends have always been pretty important to me though I don't always agree with other people even if I might be loyal to a point because real friends will still be your friend even after making mistakes but will tell you when you ain't actin right. I wouldn't be opposed to examine my own behaviour that I'm not a hypocritical about and will tend to hold myself to my own standards when it comes to conduct towards other people. I'd just been watching certain people for certain reasons in case I needed to defend something to be honest and trying to convince other people to reform... but my loyalty to certain people had never been questionable when it came down to it; excuse me for getting annoyed at possibly being called a traitor to Asgard and forced to consider other people simply because I'd known certain other people connected to them in some way. I'm going to feel like punching someone in the face to defend myself because they'll tend to say they want to punch me in the face first despite the fact I'd actually be innocent of what I'd actually get accused of and did have pretty good intentions... I really don't give a damn if it's someone whose famous, but I'd consider people beyond their appearances too. I can take a lot of abuse but once someone is neither misunderstood, innocent, changed, regretful nor well intentioned I don't feel like putting up with it just because of how much abuse I'd had to deal with from other people over the years that I'm very tired of and I feel like fighting back just as hard I'd had to put up with certain people for a long time and getting accused of a whole bunch of things that'd I'd been either misunderstood, innocent of or hadn't been what I'd come off like... I have always liked the merc league in general, a few people from a certain other guild too that were rather nice and I'd tended to trust them a lot throughout the years, but I hadn't immediately when I first met them because I'd grown up with people from a roleplay gangster hip hop guild that I'd also cared about and liked and people would probably have a reason to be suspicious of us either due to our past of hostile takeovers and other people in it that'd resorted to certain things, but I'd been working on reforming that in the past and I do like independance with alliances as a concept. In the past, I've seen even certain people from military guilds actually blow things up, abuse their authority, mess around or pick on people that might be different than them... this can be true of certain other guilds in the past including mine. It's a system that's not without its flaw or had been a perfect system just saying and I suppose that even those people might feel a sense of family with their guilds which I can understand, but you know I would've loved to work for either Steve or M. Wilder or any female in those guilds that I could actually agree with in terms of conduct, intentions, goals, and morals. I had been actually wondering about whether or not they'd actually been working with certain people, but you know I have never thought they were ill intentioned in general and tended to think certain people from there had been misunderstood; I have not been entirely honest about what I thought about certain things in the past because of circumstances, but today it's different and I can be as honest as I want in open. I didn't plot to overthrow other certain people but someone will probably blame me for it even though I'm actually innocent because they'll want someone to blame things on and avoid responsibility and I'm just the person that heals, stealths, covers, defends and reforms other people and stands up for what I think is generally right and for someone that I think is innocent, changed, regretful, misunderstood or well intentioned; I'll tend to look at someone beyond their appearances. I'm not a sadistic person either but I'm sure someone will attempt to paint me as such even though I'd shown actual kindness, caring, loyalty to a point, good intentions, morals and understanding towards other people when it counted both out in the open and in the background. I'm not the kind of person that would lie about nor slander someone else with malicious intentions which I have never resorted to. There are many things I could've said about other people that they actually did but I have never cared about the past as long as people are changed, regretful, misunderstood, innocent and well intentioned and it wasn't at the expense of someone that is either changed, regretful, misunderstood, innocent and well intentioned. Well real friends have always been important to me... I'll just kind of wonder whether or not someone is actually a real friend to me at times or if they're actually trying to poison me and trying to pin the blame on me unwillingly out of either dislike or malice even though I had taken the blame in the past for some other people despite not actually having being guilty out of gratitude. My hobby is actually helping out other people and healing people because even if I had some notion to be selfish I'd just do what I'd think is either right or for the better despite having considered certain things because of thinking about other people. I'm not the type of person to steal other peoples' hardwork either which I'll tend to respect, but there are technically people tyrannical, abusive, corrupt, destructive, and unreformable enough to be needed to replaced, defend and fight against for the greater good. If someone is reformable and misunderstood, then I'd probably give them a chance. I have actually always been pretty kind, caring, understanding, grateful, well intentioned, loyal to a point where I have to find it agreeable when it counted and I have actually said these things both in the background and out in the open, but in other circumstances just had not been what I'd come off as... I'm kind of a pacificist unless I actually have to defend and other people just go too far beyond what I'd consider acceptable. There are only a few people I wouldn't help or heal if it meant killing or leaving certain other people that are either misunderstood, changed, regretful, innocent or well intentioned to die, but my general and overall loyalties, intentions, conduct and goals had been stated already when it does come down to it and I'll tend to be honest about what I agree and disagree with to someone. :l Well I didn't hate some young female for marrying an good ol dad just saying, I'd always been rather supportive of women and I wouldn't attempt to 'assasinate' someone for a petty reason because I'm actually a pacifist, reformist, defensive and am innocent of what most people tend to accuse me of... I don't frame people for shit they don't do and I don't resort to tactics I'll disagree with... I'm also pretty reasonable. Don't blame me for someone elses' murderous rages or other peoples ill intentions because I know a few people who are actually guilty of what of they're accused of and have actually done what they'd intended to do, but I know certain people that probably would not have qualms blaming me or leavin me to die. Either because they dislike or hate me much like they wouldn't have qualms doing this to other people too even if they're misunderstood, innocent, changed, regretful and well intentioned and I wouldn't do this towards other people I thought were misunderstood, innocent, changed, regretful and well intentioned; even defending and standing up for them because I'd look past peoples appearances and just because I felt it'd be right. I hear Joseph tends to make fun of me and has called me a hoe that has had sex with multiple people if my name is supposed to be Judy at least in the past... It honestly makes me feels like resenting someone because it feels degrading and just because someone says something about me like this doesn't mean it's what character I have and it's what kind of person I am. Though in a ninja environment people ain't what they come off as nor are they always what they look like which I'll tend to consider beyond appearances. Don't attempt to paint me like I'm arrogant and ungrateful towards others and that I don't genuinely care about others because I always have and I've never been hypocritical about it but just because I'm not always what I come off like towards other people it doesn't mean what other people say about me is true. I'm only self concious because of what other people had been accusing me of all these years that I'm either actually innocent of or its not true. I'm only manipulative for good, but I consider other peoples feelings and their individual persons and value them either as people or as friends and I don't use and discard people at the drop of a hat in general. Also I am not power hungry at all and had never been seeking it at all... I have never framed people for something they hadn't done and I have never framed people for something to save myself. I have never attempted to bomb or shoot an arrow at certain other people either. The only one I actually did aim something at had been Suicide Soldier and Cobra Comm Sol as secondary without even considering their identities, I probably wouldn't sacrifice other people for Mal Chaos either and it'd only been really to keep other people alive even though I had previously trying to get them to reform because they either target for assassination or going to kill certain people that I felt deserved another chance because they're either misunderstood, changed, regretful, innocent or well intentioned although I'd have been fine if people changed in the modern world and got along today. I'd even attempt to look past appearances because not everyone is what they come off as in a ninja world. I'd never been a thief in general and it's something I'd been uncomfortable with, but there are honestly people that are either abusive, corrupt, destructive, tyrannical and unreformable enough to stand up and defend against... If someone's reformable though I feel that'd be the more desireable route. I'd even stated to stop chaotic and destructive agents in the past without killing people in the past in the background, but other people aren't what they come off as or look like which I'd always consider and have varyin motivations for what they do. I'd had to sacrifice my own image for other people just to keep them alive before... Right now though, my overall loyalties, intentions, goals and conduct have already been mentioned and real friends have always been important to me. The only reason I don't actually follow certain orders is because I can't agree with it... I'll probably get unwillingly roped into it... I also don't sleep around with other people for certain reasons just sayin.

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