User:Positive Integer

Psh, don't act like I treat other girls like servants, I am rather supportive of other women in general, it's also rather bullshit that I am somehow attributed as treating other women like that, whom I generally have always respected in terms of attitude, goddamn, it annoys me to be accused of not respecting women or caring about them as people and friends, and no Shido, I do not hate men but I'm not in agreement of people who act like assholes at a given moment, and then blame the same things on me for what they actually did and did worse, despite the fact I've never been a bully in actuality and have always stood up for other people when it counted. I've always valued other people as people rather than tools to be used or discarded and real friends have always been valued to me. Also someone can say what they want about me, but I've never been the worst in terms of attitude towards other people. I'm in fact a pretty kind-hearted, caring, and understanding person when it counts though I was not always what I looked like to other people. So don't you act like I'm somehow an unreasonable man-hating person just because somebody is a guy and it's more like their personality I look at most of the time, though other people aren't what they look like, which I do try to understand and look past. Another thing, don't blame me for the execution of other people or lacking a value for other peoples lives, which I generally had shown a value for, that I did not even order just because of something that happened in the past, that meant I wasn't always what I looked like to other people and because somebody probably feels like deflecting some blame on me for bullshit I didn't even do. I cared more than anybody about my old guild and my old friends, but I've come to care about the mercenary league and the people there too... I've had conflicting loyalty to people on different sides before because of certain people, but there is two particular people I wouldn't hold onto if it meant sacrificing someone other people. The mercenary league have always seemed like misunderstood people to me and I wouldn't regret defending them if it came down to it. I am rather loyal to a point, that is only the point where I can't agree. I refuse to take the blame, heal or die for somebody that doesn't have good intentions, isn't regretful, isn't misunderstood, isn't innocent, isn't changed and doesn't care - The past has never mattered to me because of this and I'm pretty forgiving. I realize though that I'm not to blame for what I'm being accused of and I'm confident in what kind of person I am, confident in my conduct towards other people, regardless of what someone else says about me because what I might have 'looked' like to other people. I'm neither wrathful nor a crybaby over loss and people who actually know me, know that I'm pretty well-intentioned, loyal, kind, compassionate, caring when it does count both in the open and in the background, just because I'm not what I look like doesn't what mean you say about me is true, but if someone is a continuous unjustified asshole, bully and overboard saboteur, don't expect me not to be defensive or not respond to defend myself or other people from bullshit accusations, by people with big egos that don't want to take responsibility for their own crap and then resort to hypocritically blaming me for something that I know they're the ones that have actually done shit in the past... I try to look past what people look like and give someone a benefit of doubt if they're either misunderstood, changed, innocent or regretful. I'll stand up for other people if I think I should. I was neither arrogant, stuck up, or nasty towards other people so there's nothing wrong with me. If I responded it was because they themselves displayed poor attitude in regards to other people at a given moment, despite the fact I'm always the one reaching out to someone else to understand them, since I have always been pretty kind, well-intentioned, caring, loyal, and I have never treated other people degradingly, but due to circumstances was not always what I looked like and will often get accused of something I don't do. Despite how I look, I have always actually liked certain people and my loyalties and conduct have already been stated when it comes down to it, though it's not always apparent because of circumstances. Real friends have always been something I valued. I've always been pretty grateful to other people when it counted. In reality I'm a pacifistic defensive reformist, but I'll stand up for what I think is right and for other people when I think I should.

I'm rather defensive, reformist, nice, compassionate, caring, kind, loyal, rather had good intentions and rather understanding to other people in actuality... I've never been arrogant. Spare me from having to have traits stacked on me that I don't have because of a giant ego, but I have always tried to see past what someone looked like and I've always been grateful to other people when it counted... It's rather annoying when people start acting like they're god, don't make mistakes, don't have any flaws whatsoever, then call other people stuff and its always everyone else. The only person that I actually ever purposely stalked and aimed to curb and reform from destructive and framing methods had actually been Suicide Soldier/Cobra Commander Sol... I have never agreed with destructive, framing, massacre type tactics at all and it's always been apparently stated when it comes down to it. Heh, I've actually always thought that Chaos was an asshole, but he did care for a select few other people.

I don't care about the past so long as someone is innocent, misunderstood, changed, regretful, and is well-intentioned... I don't see why people aren't allowed to live if this was the case. I'll stand up and defend other people when it counts. I'm not the one that's narcissistic or arrogant or elitist - I have never displayed an elitist attitude Khaled and I never cared about status or what faction someone is from, it's always been apparent that it's always been... About what attitude, intentions, and actions somebody had. My loyalties and conduct had long ago been stated when it comes down to it. I've always had quite a lot of honor when it came down to it. I've always had a rather good and fine attitude towards other people though I wasn't what I looked like towards other people and when it comes down to it I'll basically think the needs of other people before myself. I just feel that for once I want to live for myself and don't have any interest in dying for someone that is neither innocent, misunderstood, changed, regretful nor well-intentioned this time around. I had actually stated to stop chaotic and destructive agents before... The fact that I stated as not wanting other people to die nor get raped by anyone, and implying for someone to help other people and go for reform instead of massacreing, framing or resorting to destruction, had been in the background without me having said it out in the open, but at one point in time I've been blamed as having done things I haven't nor ever believed in. And I have always cared about you Carl... Honestly if everyone, even Ralph, could just get along that would've been ideal to me, including but not limited to living in a peaceful changed, reformed, and good coexistance.

I don't care who's in charge so long as they're not abusive, tyrannical, destructive, and they're reasonable, reformable, well-intentioned, misunderstood or have worked hard... Being non-elitist is a plus. I would not steal someone elses' hardwork nor would I mind who it is that is in charge so long as they displayed the right traits towards others, to hold something. I just wouldn't do it at the expense of other people that I knew to be either innocent, misunderstood, changed, regretful or well-intentioned already. I just need to be able to agree with someone elses' intentions and conduct to follow through with anything. I've never been a bully by the way... It's more like me reacting to other people who act like bullies first repeatedly and then like act they're a victim. I've always tried to look past what other people do look like though and I'll stand up for other people when I think I should. I mean I wasn't always what I looked like in the past due to circumstances, but I've always been pretty well-intentioned, loyal, caring, kind, and considerate of other people as it was stated in the background and when it came down to it, but got accused frequently of shit I didn't actually do, just because of sacrificin myself, healin, bodyguarding and stealthin, to keep other people alive... I had literally stated in the background: to stop destructive and chaotic agents without killing people and implied for somebody to help other people and to reform, instead of resorting to tactics that I cannot agree with, rather than wasting time nuking people, 'massacreing' other people and revenge. I mean I've felt an urge to do things that might've been selfish and thought of doing something because of certain people, but at the end I'd always think of other people before myself and just do what I'd feel was right. Certain other people though are misunderstood and I've almost always been the one reaching out to somebody else first and trying to understand people beyond what they look like. I've always valued other people as people and have always valued their lives and not as tools because real friendship has always been valued by me. People who actually knew me beyond how I might come off as, know that I've have never actually been a bully towards others at a certain point and I haven't always been what I look like to other people, just don't blame me for defending when someone acts like jerk at a given moment without either being misunderstood, changed, regretful, innocent, nor well-intentioned.

I've already long ago stated my loyalties when it comes down to it though. It's always been my old guild, some people from there and now it's the mercenary league. I did in fact like Steve from the UGMF... At least what he was like on the surface... and other people from the UGMF. I've always felt that Wielder and the mercenary league have always had pretty good intentions and have always been pretty nice despite how they might look on the surface and despite how I might've looked on the surface I have always liked them and have always respected them in general... I'd feel that Wielder is essentially someone I can trust to make the right decisions regarding something and I'd honestly have no regrets at all defending him, his friends and people from there, because they are rather misunderstood. I remember when I apologized if I ever caused the mercenary trouble straight towards somebody and someone got irked at me because of the fact that I even had a connection to this somebody and this someone was supposed to be their rival. He's actually been the one of the people I'd feel comfortable working for... Steve from the UGMF would have actually fit that bill too.

I just wish someone would stop calling me a hoe and telling people bullshit about me oh so degradingly in their narrowly-biased considerations in real life like it's what my character is, and like it makes me any less of a decent person or less of a person at all. I'm not a gold digger... I have never had relationships with other people due to money. Excuse me if I feel the need to establish my own identity outside of what someone oh so biasedly and bullshitingly tries to label on me. Yeah I might be a loser and not always be aware of situations, but I've always been a pretty compassionate, considerate, kind, well-meaning and understanding person in reality when it counted both in the background and out in the open and in that regard have always been a decent if not good person, though had not always been what I looked like because of circumstances. I'll stand up for other people when I think I should. Just because someone else says something about me doesn't mean it's true or what kind of person I actually am. Just don't expect to me cater to someone if someone treats me poorly repeatedly and bullies me without a good reason and it might be because of something I didn't even do. I've always tried reaching other people beyond what they look like on the surface. Excuse me if I feel like defending myself. I don't care if someone hates me in real life... I'm confident enough in what kind of person I am regardless of what somebody else says about me to other people without either considering context or something beyond the surface. I just want to move on with my life and work towards my goals without negativity hovering in the background somewhere and deliberately trying to make it worse. I don't deliberately make it worse for other people and I have never been the type of person to talk shit about other people. I've litterally forgiven and reached out beyond appearance, despite what I knew had actually been said to me in the background. If all somebody wanted was a home and a place where they could fit in - I wouldn't ruin that for somebody else - and they truly changed in both regret and well-intentions, didn't go out of their way to cause trouble such as killing, framing, or bombing other people, because after all it is something that I'd always wanted at the end, I just can't sacrifice someone else in favour of somebody who is neither changed, innocent, regretful, misunderstood, and well-intentioned and I'll basically stand up for what I agree or disagree about even though I'm loyal to real friends to a point.

However; people are not always what they look like and people change and I've always considered this. I've always valued other peoples lives more than anybody. If someone's going to try to kill you unjustifiably don't you defend yourself? I didn't bully someone because I was jealous or call someone a dog to be demeaning and contrary to popular belief I am not spiteful and I'm neither rich nor spoiled. I'm merely not always what I look to other people and if someone can't see past that then they're probably shallow, but I'll react to someone at a given moment and stand up for other people because somebody else is actin like bullies when it's overboard. I'll honest try to look past at what somebody looks like and try to understand someone beyond appearance, because not everyone is what they look like in a ninja environment. I've never been a bully in general or in reality man... I have always rather liked the mercenary league in general... certain other people and I respected them because of their attitude... I've always valued other people as people rather than tools and valued other people as real friends. Rebellions are really last-resort, for the unreformable, destructive, tyrannical and abusive people in power, but obviously some people are rather misunderstood. My loyalties have already been stated when it comes down it multiple times. : P

Also I have never developed a rivalry towards Sakura when it comes to Sasuke at all and I've always certainly liked other people sporting pink hair someplace else and I have always been quite supportive of other women in general though I do not always agree with someone just because of their gender... I'm just not a proponent of women or men really, catfighting over somebody else whether or not they are a guy or girl. To me it's always been about attitude rather than status or gender. I have never been a jerk towards others and if I did something in defense it was because they themselves acted pretty poorly in regards to others and trashtalked and acted so overbearing elitist... I just had to say something, but if someone's misunderstood or not what they look like I'd often try to understand other people past appearances. Other times I'd been stealthing, healing and sacrificing myself just to keep other people alive and just because I'm friends with somebody doesn't mean I'll always agree with them, but under different circumstances had not always been what I looked like to other people. I've always been genuinely well-intentioned, kind, compassionate, loyal, reformist and caring when it counted both out in the open and in the background. I'll stand up for someone else if I think should, you know? I'm only loyal to a point in which I feel that I have to actually agree with it in moral and conduct, in order to follow through with someone elses' orders. I know there's people at my school that talk about me, but it doesn't matter what people say about me as long I'm alright with what kind of person I am and I'm secure enough in what kind of person I was, that it has never mattered what other people have said about me.

Well to be honest with you I have never been much into other guys in general and I am not a male-crazy person at all so the fact that I'm doing something is not for the fact that I want other guys to notice me, because I've always placed friendship and what I felt was right as priority and therefor have always placed other people and their needs including but not limited to friends that are either male or female, above my own. I just joke around a lot and if I come off as remotely interested in somebody else romantically, it's either because I'm obfuscating what I actually feel towards somebody and it's because I am actually pretty unsure what I feel towards somebody else. There is literally one definitive person that I have come to love as more than a friend and that other time I thought I liked someone as more than a friend, it had been female.

Of course I've always been empathetic when it counted and someone that tells you I haven't been empathetic and am incapable of it and is labelling me as an evil person is pretty much lying about me or not even considering past what I look like in the past to please their own ego. I'm as pacifistic and as reformist as anybody else, but common don't expect me to just take abuse and bullshit and bullying repeatedly without defending myself or other people and they're neither innocent, misunderstood, regretful, changed or well-intentioned. It's like inviting people who are actually mean just because they're entitled to be mean out of an innate sense of an ego, to just trample all over me and act like I'm the one at fault when in fact they'd been instigating shit for a long damn time and have never even apologized for such. I never take rap battling all that seriously, but at times was not always what I looked like to other people because of circumstances, but still got accused of it even though I was innocent. There was always a couple people in particular that I felt keeping an eye on and it's been someone that's already mentioned. It's not just me either I mean I'll stand up for other people when I think I should and I'm as forgiving as the next person as long people actually change, regret, are misunderstood, innocent or well-intentioned. Hm. I've always rather liked people from the mercenary league because they've all rather seemed nice and misunderstood to me. I'm not a traditional hero that goes in guns blazing or maybe I'm not considered a hero at all, but I've always been kind, nice, compassionate, caring, understanding, reasonable, reformist, defensive, and stood up for other people when it counted. If they're misunderstood, changed, reformed, innocent and well-intentioned I'll often reach out to someone, but again I wouldn't sacrifice someone else I knew to be misunderstood, changed, innocent, regretful or well meaning. I'd help out other people both in the dark and out in the open in real life and online. I've been looking at things through different lenses because I want to see something redeemable and something different. If you've always been labeled a monster and not encouraged to be something else by other people... Then how will somebody become somebody different than what other people think? In any case, I've already stated my loyalties, conduct, intentions, and morals when it comes down to it and real friends have always been pretty important to me. : P

To be a hero doesn't mean playing the part of a hero, but to actually be one in terms of conduct, moral and intentions but people aren't always what they look like right. Real heroes aren't in it for the glory of being a hero and real heroes don't try to become heroes at the expense of other people they know, that are either innocent, misunderstood, changed, regretful or well-meaning. Heroes stand up for and work and sacrifice themselves for the greater good and for other people they know to be innocent, misunderstood, changed, regretful or well-intentioned - whether or not these people are from a certain factions doesn't matter. It's always been about conduct, intention, honor and morals and they'll choose to do what's right regardless of their status. It's better to live, for one can benefit the world in a meaningful way by merely, living and continueing on to help other people. Sometimes though, being hero doesn't mean fighting or beating other people up simply because - Cuz real heroes know when reform and peace and compassion is possible and reasonable and when people aren't always what they look like. Having a title doesn't make somebody a hero, but it can perhaps set you up for heroism and help someone get confidence enough to do what's right. My point is being a hero doesn't mean having a title it's about what kind of person you are and what actions you take in regards to other people. Real heroes will reach out to someone beyond their appearance and not care about what everyone else thinks if it isn't at the expense of people that you know that is either misunderstood, changed, regretful, innocent or well-intentioned. People can truly be heroes if they wanted through conduct, intentions and morals - They wouldn't even necessarily need approval from other people. See that person everyone else thinks is guilty, but is actually innocent? Heroes will look beyond the appearance of guilty, will understand what it means beyond appearance and will look at whether or not they actually did it or whether or not they are actually guilty, then try to understand why they'd done what they did and the context of which they did something and whether or not they regret having done something in their life.

I'm not even sure what I am supposed to think anymore since at one point I did actually blindly shoot and attempted to arrest Suicide and Com Sol before out of defense for someone else and the fact that I know they're still around and might possibly hate me because of that time in the past, but I always knew him and had some sort of connection, that I have never even considered before. I've always avoided using destruction, killing, and assassination magic in general for people that I'd think would be reformable, changeable, misunderstood, innocent and well-intentioned... and I've always been basically a healer, defense, stealth, bodyguard, magic user. I'd have been fine if people truly changed, regreted, and became well-intentioned by now, but I probably can't sacrifice other people. People have at one point told me I had attempted to actually shoot the Joker who is in actuality Chaos. People have then told me that I had actually been aiming something at Isaac Ray Pelham Wescott, but isn't Isaac supposed to be Nero? I actually liked Nero... At least what he'd been like on the surface and he never striked me as somebody that is considered an abnormal monster either. He honestly seemed like a nice person to me... My loyalties, conduct and intentions already have been stated when it comes down to it. I've always been a big fan of Captain America and the actual Steve Rogers because of the attitude from before despite me implied to be 'ignorant' on one occasion due to an incident, but if the actual Steve from UGMF is supposedly Aladdin then that implies we are friends, but isn't Steve actually supposed to be a caucasian dude? I don't even know anymore mang. There is a big impliction that vampire-san is actually a certain somebody I know such as Mk... but on another occassion it's been implied to be Nero. If it's Nero though and Nero is Isaac Ray with silver hair and Harry Potter's team isn't really supposed to be a specific rat-loving team, then that implies that he cannot therefor be a rat-loving coddling person and buds aren't really supposed to be poisonous... and my blue haired-brother is supposedly Voldemort, but Mike is often mistaken for someone else. Honestly, if anyone actually did look like a Voldemort... It'd be Sui Sol and Com Sol, whom I couldn't and wouldn't consider siding with just because of my loyalties to certain people. Pst, also not all rats have bad intentions just like not all humans have bad intentions, because it really never mattered what faction someone was from, but the conduct, intentions and morals did matter. People do in fact change and people aren't what they look like right.

I'm seriously blind now and feeling around for something to see. I'm an even bigger fan of Wielder just because he cares about his friends a lot and is someone I'd feel I trust to make the right decisions in general and he'd still be my favorite police officer because of this attitude in the past. I like Steve Rogers, Captain America, but even with Captain America in mind... Wielder would still be my favorite police officer of ALL time and I'd still like the mercenary league in general whether or not they were female or male, just because they always seemed like nice and misunderstood people to me, but I really don't know what my current relationship would actually be with some of them now. I have had friends not apart of their group though and I have loyalty to them too to a point where I have to be able to agree. People could be largely misunderstanding each other. If everyone could live in reasonable peaceful reform, change and good, that'd be ideal to me but when it comes down to it I do owe my loyalties to certain people like Wielder and by extension his friends if someone's going to act like they're some villains or somehow out to get people, but yeah... destruction and framing people isn't something I'd agree with. : P

I've always been pretty well-intentioned regardless of what I'm labeled just cuz I'm not always what I looked like and I've never been intentionally 'villainous' towards other people although that would depend on what you'd consider 'villainous'. I have always cared about something, if I didn't I wouldn't even go out of my way to stand up for other people, wouldn't go out of my way to try to see past appearance, wouldn't even go out of way to give advice to help out someone else or wouldn't disagree when I should, which I have generally done. Just don't expect me not to fight back if someone is continuously being a bully, abusive, displays a poor attitude, in regards to myself or others and is destructive-minded and blaming what they're responsible for on someone else, without actually being misunderstood, changed, regretful, nor well-intentioned... I do admit to having trolled a little and defended, but it's only because it was in response of somebody trash-talking too much without provocation and and telling people to go kill themselves and other things such as accusing me of doing it even though I didn't tell other people to kill themselves, stated value-ing the lives of other people more than anybody and even stated my disagreements on what I'd think. I would invite them not for the purpose of starting a fight but to actually bridge a weird gap that somehow started from before, but I'd often try to understand past what someone else looks like and often try to at least get along. I've never been a trash talker and if I did, it was in response to somebody else that trash-talked too much.. I never actually started feeling much emotion whatsoever until a certain point in the past and it had been merely a defensive response. Sometimes I just wish someone didn't act so hypocritical sometimes. Then I remember said person is actually a friend right now despite the past. What I've always actually kept an eye on just in case had been someone infamous and notorious enough to try to cause real damage, but I know they're still around and at one point been friends with such person without knowing... I really couldn't sacrifice other people for them if it came down to it. I'd have been fine if people actually changed and reformed for real and I'd have left someone else to decide what to do with said person just because I know they're an instigator, but I've already stated my loyalties when it came down to it to both Wielder and the mercenary league some people in my old guild and my old guild itself, I wouldn't go out of my way to cause trouble for certain people in the UGMF either. If a compromise could not even have been reached, just because the mercenary league has always seemed to have good intentions, were misunderstood and were pretty nice people, I honestly wouldn't regret siding with them. If someone really truly cared about me or just wanted a home and a place to feel like they fit in, then I honestly wouldn't turn my back on them or ruin that for them as long as I could agree with the conduct, intention and morals of somebody else and would've just opted for actual real reform and change without the expense of other people that I knew to be innocent, changed, misunderstood, regretful or well-intentioned; I just wouldn't be willing to die just to keep someone I knew not to have the greatest intentions, not be innocent, not be changed, not be misunderstood, not be particularly caring nor be regretful - alive at my expense and I know they're either trying to slander me/other people or trying to kill me/other people out of malice to keep themesleves alive. I am loyal to a point where I have to be able to agree and real friends have always been important to me.