Thread:Mediawatcher/@comment-4708882-20160426013645/@comment-4708882-20160603125744

While I enjoy Steven Universe I haven't been able to watch much of if overall.

I can't say I have a good view on life because it's been almost nothing but a living hell for me. It seems everytime I get to feeling good or something decent happens then something takes that away and more.

This is it in a nutshell: a brother who did nothing but steal from me and ruin my birthdays as a kid by yelling and occasionally physical assault now living with me again, a friend of my father who would physically hurt me and leave bruises (my parents were unaware of it due to him scaring me and I tried to hide them), losing my grandfather at 13 or so and he was one of my only friends, constantly bullied by peers, made fun of and rejected by girls I had crushes on one even ignoring my name and just called me "It" when she found out I liked her, got OSS not long after my grandpa died and the rejection that involved being called "It", forced to be a father like figure for my nephews, a psychopathic nephew who has lied to cops, thrown glass, a metal stool at my knee (including one I have genetic defect that hurts often), tried hurt me while I slept because I told him no on something and I can't do anything because my brother said I I dpank him he'll basically beat me up, my dad having to go out of town to earn enough money for my family to pay off a debt and my girlfriend to break up with me last Saturday after being together for two years. Everytime I've helped someone even without wanting anything in return I get the short end of the stick and something bad seems to happen

To say the very least I'm far from having a positive outlook on life and consider myself a nihilist (I see no meaning in life nor hold much value of my own). So I'm gonna have to say while I enjoy the messages of think positive in shows, I don't think they're accurate at all. I apologize for the rant on my life and it's just me letting you know I'm not one of those think positive. I see the world as a dark place that forces you to be strong and adapt or you won't make it.