Thread:Mesektet/@comment-26499804-20181011125622/@comment-3581997-20181019012708

I was like that once. Not having your mind rest is normal by the way. The problem, I eventually found, was that most people do not have introspection, so they do not consider how their actions affect others, which leads to selfishness, callous behavior and disappointment for people who do empathize with them. The trick is, that you must accept as a default most humans are like this. Stop expecting empathy, it exists and you will find it, but it is the exception, not the rule, the rule is self-interest.

Meaning is given to things through limits. A shape is defined by it's edges, a number is defined by it's contrast to nothing, and death is defined by life. You will die some-day, on that day any definition imprinted on you will be from the life you lived. Consider that, the full scope of your life, your definition, that is the route of finding meaning for your life. And something you can learn from all animals, humans included, is charisma, presence, is built from that sense of meaning, no one respects someone who does not have that meaning, whatever that meaning is, once you have a purpose others will key-in-on it, and subconsciously pick-up on that focus and social treatment will change radically.

I would strongly suggest a Discord download. You can find more people across the world quicker, weeding out those that do not sync. Many game communities out there can give you meeting places and find the right group, as it is I could introduce you to a few. And even if not, having a form of communication that spans the world, is free and can be bond by a single shared interest like a game makes fora good foundation for that sort of social circle. Another thing I did before I came to my revelations about the nature of humanity was meditation. Sit with your eyes closed focusing on what you can feel, trying to be aware of every part of your body, quieting your internal reasoning til you are focused entirely on the moment. It can provide much perspective.

Just, just stay away from any Scientologists while you are in this state though.