Thread:Mesektet/@comment-26499804-20181011125622/@comment-26499804-20181019054507

I always liked animals growing up as a kid and to this day I still like animals. To me I always believed animals were better than people and I still feel that way. As for death I'm not worried about that. My family and other people close to me in my life do care about me. Sure there are problems but they have always liked me for being the nicest person in the family. Even though I would hide in a shell like turtle or a crab I use to be happy and I smiled everyday. Ture I might have kept to myself as a kid and I still am a nice guy but people that I know have pointed out that I don't smile as much as I use to.

I don't know if you have heard the song This Little Of Mine well my little that good personality in me is dying out. I'm still keeping a level head and still see things clearly but my positive side it is almost gone. Let's just say 2017 and 2018 have become my braking point new problems being added to the old problems that have been bottled up have made things worse. I am angry, stomping and screaming almost every single day or crying whenever I'm not yelling. Like I said as a kid I was always in a good mood even though I was scared around people now I'm angry and scared.

As for the part where you talked about meditation to help me be aware of my body. Well I have something to say about my body but it mostly has to do with my heart. As I get sad I feel a pain in my heart and I mean literally whenever I get sad and it is a pain that I have never felt before. So not only am I about snap and blow my top I also feel my heart hurting. You're the first person This is the first time I have mentioned to anyone about the pain in my heart.